I've returned from restructuring.

So, where have I been? I only have a second to post something, so this will be the Cliffs Notes version of the last month and a half. Mr. Fight and I are totally, totally through. And I feel amazing. I moved out on May 1st after 3 awkward weeks of living together after the initial 5 days of, "get out and stay out." It was hard and scary and lonely, but it was the best choice I ever made. I basically spent some time drugging myself with Valium for a bit and when I came to, I was okay about the whole thing. I wasn't going to look for anyone to be with to take my mind off of my husband, because I've seen girls do that after a bad break up and it always seems to do them more harm than good. I just wanted to be alone and mope and face my fears. It wasn't so bad. I got a job bar tending and I don't have some deadbeat on the couch sucking me dry, so I am not as stressed about cash as I used to be. I mean, I'm still "big picture" poor as shit, but I can pay my rent with ease now, which is nice.
So there I was all content with my choice and feeling okay about everything and the most wonderful and unexpected thing happened. I met someone! Yay! I have never once found someone that I wanted to share my life with when I was looking for someone to share my life with. It felt so right because it was just so natural. I know it seems super fast, but by the time I left Brian, I realized I was already over him. My romantic love had turned into this caregiving love and the husband/wife shit was already long gone. I tried to keep my guard up with the guy I met, but after one day it felt like I had known him a million years. None of the weird awkwardness that can come with a new relationship. I won't go into detail yet, but I feel the happiest I have ever been. He went through a pretty traumatic break up recently and we have a similar perspective on what a relationship should be and what our last ones were missing. I won't gush about him here (yet), but I could. So be happy for me, because my life rules.